"I want to travel with you" I said.
"This is not possible. We are not compatible for this activity",
you replied. "Not even some places close by?" I continued.
"No, I can't do that either " was your quick answer.
So now I will travel with you in my heart and mind. Go places,
explore what I would have liked to share with you. Maybe even
in the company of another or others. But I know that I will still have
you with me because now you are only a character in my book!
I shall write about the experiences that we would have had
together. My love for you and the memories I hold are still
so strong right now. Time will eventually cover these tracks
and I shall move on and walk at my own pace, in the courses
that I will choose. What a pity! I honestly thought that we had
reached a perfect understanding and our arrangement was
mutually beneficial. You were I thought 'the perfect companion'
for me. I thought that you said: "we are so different in our views
and ways of doing things!" Yes, but for me, that was the attraction.
What gave us more strength and interest in each other.
We complement each other in so many ways and 'love' could
unite the two in our sunset years! I don't know why you have
chosen to say "goodbye", but I must say "not definitively!" You may
need space and time for yourself. This I have given you and am willing
to accept as we move along in time! Our friendship can still remain
strong but now that you have cast your net and rejected this particular
fish in your part of the sea, I am not so sure that we can be the same
as before! The test of 'love' will come into play and if this is positive,
then we may be able to continue to walk together. All I know now: that
my heart is in pain, your rejection hurts and I still think of you!
