The sky is today a light blue with clouds
gathered in groups with definite borders.
There is no wind, the air is quite warm
for this time of the year. You would expect
birds to be chasing each other and, on the road,
cars coming through noisily. But no, no, it is quiet,
just like my soul today! I am at peace with myself.
The last few years have been a whirlwind of activity,
moving and shifting so much of my wares... yes
they have come to rest in my new warehouse.
All these chattels, books, clothes and furniture,
my notes and media products, including my photos
and footage, the project boxes, family memories
of when my children were young! And, of course,
all this reminds me of Nella. I am surrounded
by all these things that she bought and kept for
an eventual use. She was a true buyer, my Nella.
With her moving into celestial life. I have had to
move on, to continue my journey. One that basically
travels along the same tracks of my choosing, but
this time with me totally at the helm. Moving forward
as I please without having to consider Nella's wishes
and her needs! How strange it is to feel as if my life
is beginning again! A reminder of a time before
I met Nella when I went here and there as I
pleased: meeting new friends, going out to dances
and outings... and always looking for a possible partner
to behold and love. Yes, love was there hidden in those
days of freedom. Then it arrived. The pot of love at the bottom
of the rainbow's end. And life in two as one began
until decades later when cancer struck. We thought
we could win! It wasn't to be! And Nella left a void
in my life... I did not stop and brood. I kept going
with Nella by my side in spirit...But as the days, months
and a couple of years went by and after settling
and resettling the chattels which surround me now,
I have found peace in my heart! I have accepted
the inevitable end of life and the beginning of new life.
I have always cherished memories and history.
I continue to love these but have learnt through Sunset
Love to appreciate the Now and the transient nature of time
in our life's journey. Happy, joyful or sad, in pain, grieving
or overcoming these, I, you, we all must bow our head and pray
to remain positive and try to protect our health, our way of living.
Not to be attached too much to earthly possessions and value
our spiritual and emotional human condition. To love, share,
being generous and kind are ingredients that will lead each
one of us to be 'in peace with ourselves!'
